Daily Recovery Blog
Thursday Mar 12, 2026
"Courage is fear that has learned how to pray." - Pauline J.
WHY WORRY?It was never easy for me not to worry. I think worrying started
for me at a young age. I know it may sound crazy, but if my
parents had gone on a trip without me and were driving home, my
imagination could create a disaster in my mind. I had the dark
cloud syndrome. I lived in constant fear that something bad was
just about to happen. I remember hearing it shared at a meeting
that our first thought is usually wrong. The light bulb went off.
I related to that concept. I understood what was meant by that. I
was wired differently. I needed help seeing my faulty thought
patterns. The steps were opening up my mind to a new thought
process. I did not have to react to my first thought. It was a
slow learning process for me. That first prayer, "help me stay
clean", became even more sincere. I actually began having
conversations with my God. My daily prayer time increased. The
prayers felt more sincere than before. God could and would, if he
were sought. These are not normal statements coming from a hope
to die dope fiend. I was experiencing divine intervention. I was
beginning to experience brief periods of serenity in between the
distorted thinking. My journey had begun.
"Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of
its joy." - Leo Buscaglia
Wednesday Mar 11, 2026
"The atheist can't find God for the same reason that a thief
can't find a policeman." - Mike S.
SIGNS FROM GODThe question of whether or not God exists is not really a problem
for me. The problem lies in my commitment to a specific God. I
have never had that deep down feeling that some people have
experienced. God has never come to me in a vision. I have never
spent long periods of time reading about or studying any
particular religion. The only signs that I have seen of a higher
power, are the many times in my life that I survived my
addiction, almost like I had a guardian angel looking over me.
When I inventoried my life, it became very obvious that there
have been far too many coincidences for me to ignore that there
was a higher power. I must admit that I spent many years high on
drugs, so those incidents were clouded by the drugs. It is very
hard to make sense out of recalling experiences that sometimes
included me blacking out. I got clean at 27. My drug usage
stopped. I was drug-free, and although my living skills were
minimal, I was able to see things much more clearly. These
situations sent me an even stronger message. I had many miracles
that reassured me of a power greater than myself. One very
obvious experience was when I decided I wanted a new sponsor. I
was using prayer, asking God to please help me to find the right
person. I recall leaving my house and heading for work one
morning. For some reason, I decided to take the back roads. I
never went that way to work. I had narrowed my choice of a
sponsor down to two people. It was on my mind as I came to a four
way stop. There was a car that approached the 4 way stop at the
same time. I had to look up to see which one of us was going to
go first. In that car was one of the men I was considering for a
sponsor. I smiled and waved, and later that day I asked him to
sponsor me. I often remember how unusual that experience was to
me. I cannot say that God put us both there at the same moment.
However, I did feel like it was a positive sign. Today, I truly
enjoy getting signs from God.
"If God were small enough to be understood, He would not be big
enough to be worshiped." - Evelyn Underhill
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