Daily Recovery Blog
Tuesday Feb 10, 2026
"You can't experience victory if you refuse to surrender." -
Bruce B.
NOTHING IS SO BAD THAT USING WON'T MAKE IT WORSEMy addiction progressed to me staying loaded all the time. Once I
could no longer support my habit, I would go to an outpatient
clinic that provided me legally with drugs. This would happen
every few years for a few months at a time. My last run at the
clinic was for nine months. I was getting kicked off for dirty
urines. I heard a guy share at the meeting that he related to
girl saying she was a weekend user. He said he was a weekend user
too - from one end the week to the other. That was how I used. I
knew my thinking was twisted. I went to a clinic that gave me
drugs to help me get off drugs, and was kicked off for using
drugs. Yes, this sounds confusing. I understood it. I could never
get enough. I always wanted more. I was never satisfied. My using
always made things worse. I knew the drugs would eventually wear
off. I knew the consequences would catch up with me. Before I got
clean, I would sell out at the drop of a dime. I felt I deserved
to get high. My reality is I knew using was going to make it
worse. I was just going to stay loaded until I was forced to
stop. I learned from other members to think it all the way
through. Today I am not willing to pay the price. I was taught
the truth - nothing is so bad, using won't make it worse.
"All forms of self-defeating behavior are unseen and unconscious,
which is why their existence is denied." - Vernon Howard
Monday Feb 9, 2026
"Garbage In, Garbage Out." - Johnny B.
YOU ONLY GET OUT OF IT WHAT YOU PUT INTO ITMy attitude toward making any investment of time and money used
to be was about what is in it for me. I believe my early recovery
was by osmosis. All I was capable of doing was showing up. I was
fortunate that other members asked me to help. Most of the tasks
were simple; things like sitting up chairs, taking out the trash,
and putting the literature on the table were some of the tasks I
remember. I was told I was needed. That made me feel better. The
person I got rides to meetings with was into showing up early.
Showing up early somehow put me in the spotlight. Other members
asked my name. The new members thought I knew what was going on
just because I showed up early. Once I joined a home group, I
realized I was making an investment in my recovery. I was to be
accountable to others. My home group's members reminded me all
the time that I needed to find a sponsor. It felt like I was
being nagged. To appease others, I asked a man to be my sponsor.
That was my next major investment in my recovery. I learned about
making an investment in my recovery. This man shared his
experience, strength, and hope. He told me he cared about helping
me in my recovery. He said if I was willing to follow some simple
instructions, he could show me how he stays clean. I liked his
approach. I remember he spent hours listening to me share my
writings. Today I am truly grateful for that time. His guidance
helped me grow up.
"It is only through labor and painful effort, by grim energy and
resolute courage that we move on to better things." - Theodore
Roosevelt
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