Daily Recovery Blog
Tuesday Feb 17, 2026
"Isolation is the dark room I enter to develop my negatives." -
Sandi B.
NEVER ALONE, NEVER AGAINMy addiction had left me homeless and in jail. Any contact with
family had to be initiated by me. If I could muster up the
courage to call a family member, I heard, "what do you want now?"
I was a user. I used up all the drugs, money, and friends that I
had. I was full of self pity. I understood feeling lonely. I had
earned that feeling. Even I wished that I could get away from
myself. It was interesting to hear other addicts share, "you
never have to be alone again". When I got clean, they gave me a
white poker chip. They said I was gambling with my life. I was
told to carry that white chip as a reminder that I was an addict.
I was told a recovering addict was only a phone call away. I
needed to call before I used. I was now a member of a spiritual
fellowship. I had a higher power that was all powerful, all
caring, and all loving. The obsession to use would be lifted. I
learned that getting clean was harder than staying clean. I had a
higher power now that wanted me to be happy. I had a fellowship
that told me they needed me. I was in their loving hands. It was
my choice, but I never had to be alone again.
"Isolation is a dream killer." - Barbara Sher
Monday Feb 16, 2026
"An excuse is nothing more than a thin skin stretched over a bald
faced lie." - Terri G.
NO MORE EXCUSESMy father once said to me, "I do not want to hear it. You always
have your excuses ready." That was very true. My paranoid
personality made me cover all the bases. I learned to say it was
not me at an early age. I was full of well earned guilt. I needed
excuses to go on living. In one our readings, it states that many
of us had a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde personality. I resembled that
remark. I had done my best to always cover up my mistakes. I did
not want to get caught or be wrong, so I would spend hours
planning what I'd if I were to get caught. At the end of my
using, I was working at a university campus. I received an award
for being employee of the year. At that time I was strung on
drugs. I was stealing from the university during that whole year.
I somehow was able to cover up for a long time. My excuses worked
for a while. I had learned how to use excuses to hide my
addiction. Once I got in recovery, I was told no more excuses.
There is no excuse to use drugs. It was actually a relief. I was
tired of all the work that was required to keep up the alibis.
Hearing "no more excuses" was a good start for my recovery.
"Every vice has its excuse ready."- Publius Syrus
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