Daily Recovery Blog
Wednesday Dec 24, 2025
"I tried to contain myself, but I escaped." - Joan S.
IT IS OKAY TO BE CLEANIf you did not use drugs, I did not hang out with you. I had no
use for you. I felt better than you. I knew the answer to life. I
did not understand life without using anything. I had no concept
of complete abstinence. Why would anybody in their right mind
want to live that way? I really did not participate much in life
near the end of my using. It was a full time job just to stay
high. Life would be way too boring if I did not use drugs. I was
really separated from the real world. Everything in life revolved
around using. I was left with a big empty void when I quit using.
I was blessed to be sent from jail to a treatment center. I was
introduced to 12 step recovery there. There was not much free
time while in treatment. They had our days pretty well planned
out. I was slowly learning about leisure activities. I believe I
might not have stayed clean if I was not placed in a treatment
center. It was a blessing in disguise for me. The treatment
center introduced me to jogging. I worked myself up to a six mile
run so that I could run off property. I actually felt good
jogging. It was a clean high. I went to the beach, on picnics,
fishing, and camping. We played softball and went to movies
during my stay in treatment. I was learning how to have fun
clean. The fellowship was very small in my early recovery. There
were not many planned activities locally. Most required a road
trip. A road trip by itself was fun. We learned to love and hate
each other in short weekend. Service work was a requirement for
most of us twenty-eight years ago. There was so much to do, and
so little time. I believe attending my first convention gave me
the most powerful feeling that let me know it is okay to be
clean.
"Oh, the places you'll go. Oh, the things you'll see." - Dr.
Seuss
Tuesday Dec 23, 2025
"Wait right here. I will be right back!" - Mike S.
LEARNING TO TRUSTI had the ability to trust when I was using drugs. I would give a
dealer my money and trust that what was in package would get me
high. Once I stopped using, I acted like I could not trust
anyone. Actually, I was the one that couldn't be trusted. I was a
liar, cheat and a thief. It a while to sink in, that it was I,
that could not be trusted. The time I spent with my sponsor
helped me learn to trust. He openly shared the issues in his
life. He didn't seem to have any secrets. He showed trust in me.
The group extended their trust in me when I was elected
treasurer. I told them I had been a thief. They said they knew.
They trusted me. These valuable lessons allowed me to see who I
needed to trust. Trust took practice. It took taking risks. The
first person I needed to trust was me.
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished
by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope
at all." - Dale Carnegie
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