Daily Recovery Blog
Wednesday Mar 11, 2026
"The atheist can't find God for the same reason that a thief
can't find a policeman." - Mike S.
SIGNS FROM GODThe question of whether or not God exists is not really a problem
for me. The problem lies in my commitment to a specific God. I
have never had that deep down feeling that some people have
experienced. God has never come to me in a vision. I have never
spent long periods of time reading about or studying any
particular religion. The only signs that I have seen of a higher
power, are the many times in my life that I survived my
addiction, almost like I had a guardian angel looking over me.
When I inventoried my life, it became very obvious that there
have been far too many coincidences for me to ignore that there
was a higher power. I must admit that I spent many years high on
drugs, so those incidents were clouded by the drugs. It is very
hard to make sense out of recalling experiences that sometimes
included me blacking out. I got clean at 27. My drug usage
stopped. I was drug-free, and although my living skills were
minimal, I was able to see things much more clearly. These
situations sent me an even stronger message. I had many miracles
that reassured me of a power greater than myself. One very
obvious experience was when I decided I wanted a new sponsor. I
was using prayer, asking God to please help me to find the right
person. I recall leaving my house and heading for work one
morning. For some reason, I decided to take the back roads. I
never went that way to work. I had narrowed my choice of a
sponsor down to two people. It was on my mind as I came to a four
way stop. There was a car that approached the 4 way stop at the
same time. I had to look up to see which one of us was going to
go first. In that car was one of the men I was considering for a
sponsor. I smiled and waved, and later that day I asked him to
sponsor me. I often remember how unusual that experience was to
me. I cannot say that God put us both there at the same moment.
However, I did feel like it was a positive sign. Today, I truly
enjoy getting signs from God.
"If God were small enough to be understood, He would not be big
enough to be worshiped." - Evelyn Underhill
Tuesday Mar 10, 2026
"My ego keeps me from you and God from me." - George C.
EGO = EASING GOD OUTWhen I wanted something, I would spend an inordinate amount of
time figuring out how I could get it. I usually became obsessed
with the object of my momentary desire. I was not taking any time
to see if it was even healthy for me. It did not matter if it was
bad for me, because I would rationalize or justify it. My
thinking was messed up. I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it.
I would even pray for what I wanted hoping to get God on my side.
My ego made me believe that I could control the outcome. I had no
real experience with prayer. I know I always felt either better
or less than others. I can never remember being okay or
satisfied. I guess I was in constant turmoil. When I heard
everybody here was equal, I did not believe it. I compared my
insides with your outsides. My sponsor once told me that God has
only three answers for me: 1.) No. 2.) No, I love you too much -
and 3.) Yes, and this much more. It never hit home until I was
hurting really bad and another addict told me that rejection can
be God's way of protecting me. My personality was fragmented. I
was fortunate to be surrounded with clean addicts offering
positive suggestions. My feelings were thawing out, and I was
lonely and scared. The thought of not being in control frightened
me. I was reminded that I had a loving God. I learned to be more
sincere in my prayers. I learned to let my ego go and let God
come in.
"Action without prayer is arrogance, prayer without action is
hypocrisy." Jose Zayas
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