Daily Recovery Blog
Wednesday May 20, 2026
"Love and fear are opposites which is your higher power?" - Tres
S.
FAITH OR FEAR MAKE YOUR CHOICEI must be honest and admit that fear still lives inside me. It is
not nearly as consuming as it was 29 years ago. I have my moments
of worrying. I get scared. These feelings very seldom overwhelm
me anymore or take control of my life. In 1983, one of my sisters
gave me her old 1978 Ford Pinto. My sponsor immediately said I
owed her $500. He wanted me to be responsible. This car was a
purple color and was not in great shape, but to me it was a Rolls
Royce. Soon after I got the car, my mom gave me a hot pink bumper
stick that said: FAITH OR FEAR MAKE YOUR CHOICE. I was way too
cool to put that on the bumper, but since it was a gift from mom,
I put it inside on the dashboard. I remember one night, another
addict and I had gone to the local dog track. It was the first
time I had ever been. I am not one that gambles much, so I did
not believe it to be a problem. Before going in, I locked my rent
money in the glove box. Once inside, I bet the first three races
and lost what little money I had in my wallet. I told myself to
go get the rent money and bet it to get my losses back. I was
making the long walk back to the glove box, when I looked up at
my car and that hot pink bumper sticker could be seen from way
across the parking lot: FAITH OR FEAR MAKE YOUR CHOICE. It was
the best gift my mom could have given me. Because of her, my rent
was paid. I learned about how my disease manifests itself in all
areas of my life. This experience let me know I need God in all
areas of my life.
"Fear imprisons, faith liberates; fear paralyzes, faith empowers;
fear disheartens, faith encourages; fear sickens, faith heals;
fear makes useless, faith makes serviceable." - Harry Emerson
Fosdick
Tuesday May 19, 2026
"Anxiety is the price we pay for playing God." - Jim T.
TURN IT OVERWhenever I let go of anything important in my life, I left claw
marks. The concept of turning it over was far fetched for this
control freak. I needed to practice letting go. It helped me when
it was suggested to get a God box; just a small box that I was to
put my troubles in for my God to take care of. I was to write
down all of the issues and concerns in my life and put them in
the God box. After they were in the box, I was to go about my day
doing the next right thing not worrying about them. That
sounded easy. The problem was the committee in my head was still
figuring out what God needed to do. I was grateful for the
serenity prayer. It gave me brief moments of sanity in those
early days, and still does today. I learned to let go a little.
My obsessive personality was slowly learning a new way of life
based on faith.
“When you become good at the art of letting sufferings go, then
you'll come to realize what you were dragging around with you.
And for that, no one else other than you was responsible." -
Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
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