Daily Recovery Blog
Wednesday Sep 17, 2025
"Nobody ever found recovery as a result of an intellectual
awakening" - Sam H.
WE COME TO SUSPECTNot having any ideas about 12 step recovery prior to coming to my
first meeting, I had nothing to suspect. I was in a treatment
center. I was off of drugs for a few weeks. My mind was full of
war stories just waiting for an audience. I had the false pride
that most junkies carried with them. I was somewhat comfortable
in the therapeutic community. To me, not using meant burying the
spike. Complete abstinence was not in my vocabulary. I was always
going to need something to take the edge off. It was just the way
that I was wired. The first thing that attracted me to this
meeting was that they used the word narcotics. I thought to
myself, these people can't be all bad. Once the meeting started,
my suspicious nature quickly took over. The readings resonated
with me. I lived to use. I had no idea this was a worldwide
fellowship. I sat with my arms folded, uncertain how to respond
or feel. For some reason I wanted to identify with them. I had no
direction in my life, and I clearly needed help. My suspicions
were not true. What caught my attention was that it is a
spiritual fellowship, not religious. It was just one addict
helping another addict. When the meeting was over, I felt better.
I kept coming back, because as an addict, I wanted to feel
better. Meetings took the edge off for me. It is just the way
that I am wired.
"Hope is the only bee that makes honey without flowers." -
Robert Ingersol
Tuesday Sep 16, 2025
"I am a dopeless, hope fiend" - Ricky R.
FROM DARKNESS COMES LIGHTTo the best of my recollection, I started using somewhere around
12 years old. I know the exact time I stopped using drugs. I
know, because I read the police report. It was 4:37 P.M. December
24, 1981. During those 15 years I created a graveyard full of
buried hopes. If you asked me what the worst day of my life was,
I would tell you that it was that day. The only consolation was
that I was so high on drugs, I was only vaguely aware of the new
reality that was settling in. There was no reason for me to make
any plans. My new home was the county jail. Most of my decisions
in the near future would be made by others; judges, jurors, and
jailers. My days were as dark as my nights. Once I was introduced
to recovery, and saw other addicts staying clean, it was like
stars lighting up the sky. Twenty-nine years later, if you asked
me what was the best day of my life, I would say December 24,
1981.
"Everything that is done in the world is done by hope." - Martin
Luther King Jr.
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