Daily Recovery Blog
Monday December 1, 2025
"Nobody ever found recovery as a result of an intellectual
awakening" - Sam H.
WE COME TO SUSPECTNot having any ideas about 12 step recovery prior to coming to my
first meeting, I had nothing to suspect. I was in a treatment
center. I was off of drugs for a few weeks. My mind was full of
war stories just waiting for an audience. I had the false pride
that most junkies carried with them. I was somewhat comfortable
in the therapeutic community. To me, not using meant burying the
spike. Complete abstinence was not in my vocabulary. I was always
going to need something to take the edge off. It was just the way
that I was wired. The first thing that attracted me to this
meeting was that they used the word narcotics. I thought to
myself, these people can't be all bad. Once the meeting started,
my suspicious nature quickly took over. The readings resonated
with me. I lived to use. I had no idea this was a worldwide
fellowship. I sat with my arms folded, uncertain how to respond
or feel. For some reason I wanted to identify with them. I had no
direction in my life, and I clearly needed help. My suspicions
were not true. What caught my attention was that it is a
spiritual fellowship, not religious. It was just one addict
helping another addict. When the meeting was over, I felt better.
I kept coming back, because as an addict, I wanted to feel
better. Meetings took the edge off for me. It is just the way
that I am wired.
"Hope is the only bee that makes honey without flowers." -
Robert Ingersol
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