Daily Recovery Blog
Sunday December 7, 2025
"You can't experience victory if you refuse to surrender." -
Bruce B.
NOTHING IS SO BAD THAT USING WON'T MAKE IT WORSEMy addiction progressed to me staying loaded all the time. Once I
could no longer support my habit, I would go to an outpatient
clinic that provided me legally with drugs. This would happen
every few years for a few months at a time. My last run at the
clinic was for nine months. I was getting kicked off for dirty
urines. I heard a guy share at the meeting that he related to
girl saying she was a weekend user. He said he was a weekend user
too - from one end the week to the other. That was how I used. I
knew my thinking was twisted. I went to a clinic that gave me
drugs to help me get off drugs, and was kicked off for using
drugs. Yes, this sounds confusing. I understood it. I could never
get enough. I always wanted more. I was never satisfied. My using
always made things worse. I knew the drugs would eventually wear
off. I knew the consequences would catch up with me. Before I got
clean, I would sell out at the drop of a dime. I felt I deserved
to get high. My reality is I knew using was going to make it
worse. I was just going to stay loaded until I was forced to
stop. I learned from other members to think it all the way
through. Today I am not willing to pay the price. I was taught
the truth - nothing is so bad, using won't make it worse.
"All forms of self-defeating behavior are unseen and unconscious,
which is why their existence is denied." - Vernon Howard
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